Sunday, November 09, 2008

I'm In love

Track 1 from the 1992 Confession of Faith release
As i Hung




I’m in Love

Running through the forest
Bleeding all around
Bodies lay naked
Strewn upon the ground

Running through the graveyard
Running past the tomb
Where love lies dead
Bleeding from her womb

Dieing in this sickness
Where darkness hangs above
My sores are gaping open
For now I’m in love

Running from the vampires
Hiding in the mist
Surrendering my love
For death’s lips I kissed

Running from the woman
Haunting in my head
Chaining me upon love’s
Forsaken bed

Oh, I’m in love









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i pray for sleep

Track 2 from the 1992 Confession of Faith release
As i Hung




I Pray for Sleep

I’m twisting away
Like yesterday
I reached out my hand for her
And saw her hand on mine
And saw nothing but a ghost
Whose bitter-sweet lips
Tasted like wine

I saw the ghost from afar
Whose name I know not
Watching her eyes
Transfixed on me
Her mouth drawn and taut

I pray for sleep if only short
But I’m drawn close to her
I close my eyes to wish her gone
The ghost of mine in splendour

Help me I scream
To the world growing cold
As I reached up to grab the ghost
And found my own soul cold

I found it cold






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The Rain Will Never Cease to Fall

Track 3 from the 1992 Confession of Faith release
As i Hung



The Rain Will Never Cease to Fall

Whispered Words on the wind
And I was not the one
Softly fold and softly slide
Underneath the sun

Like ancient walls and towers
Or birds that fall in flight
Creeping words and creeping thoughts
Slither through the night

The rain will never cease to fall
The sun will never shine
But in this very dark my dear
I still can’t find the time

Falling tears and pedals
Shatter on my floor
Hungry men and children
Pounding on my door

*Lyrics by Matt Cooper





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As i Hung

Track 4 from the 1992 Confession of Faith release
As i Hung



As I Hung

As I hung by my neck in the bottomless pit
The words which you said that didn’t mean shit
Came back to me as I saw your face
Burn with disgust in this unholy place
I fought and I gasped for every last breath
Rejecting the fear and welcoming death
My phallic image being casted by light
Forgetting all else and recalling that night
That night I saw you dance in the fire
When my heart yearned for your every desire
I desired to see and to taste your skin
To hold you tight like a siamese twin
I can’t I screamed as the thin rope frayed
As I fell in your heart grotesque and decayed

Grotesque and decayed








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There is a Lady Sweet and Kind

Track 5 from the 1992 Confession of Faith release
As i Hung



There is a lady Sweet and Kind

There is a Lady sweet and kind,
Was never face so pleased my mind;
I did but see her passing by,
And yet I love her till I die.

Her gesture, motion, and her smiles,
Her wit, her voice my heart beguiles,
Beguiles my heart, I know not why,
And yet I love her till I die.

Cupid is wing├Ęd and doth range,
Her country so my love doth change:
But change she earth, or change she sky,
Yet will I love her till I die.

*lyrics by Thomas Ford






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The Sacrament

Track 1 from the 1993 Confession of Faith release
The Sacrament




The Sacrament

You tell me this is love I feel
Beside your nakedness I knee
Entwined in this sickening bliss
And praying for my saviors kiss
You say salvation will never die
Beneath your naked skin I lie
I know you see the tears I shed
But laughingly you turn your head
You fuck me for the love of skin
How worthless I know my life has been
You bathe me then in love’s disease
That pulls me to my helpless, my helpless knees
Chained upon your lonely bed
You fuck me while the tears I shed
Cloud my eyes that know not love
That see salvation far, so far above
Please taste death upon my tongue
For it’s by you that love was hung
So cold my soul upon the floor
Raping love you made a whore
Should we really be in love



"The Sacrament" This is part 3 of the winter 1995 Confession of Faith performance at Ground Zero in Minneapolis, Minnesota. This performance was done during the time COF was negotiating their way onto the Triple X Records compilation "Dim View of the Future". Dark and ominous are crutial elements in a COF performance. This song is from the ep "The Sacrament".



'The Sacrament' This is very Confession of Faith, dark lighting, the intense aural, industrial cascade. This song is from The Sacrament ep. The crowd seems very intense due to the fact that this was performed in the lunchroom for the 1993 Jefferson High School Battle of the Bands and most of the students probably hadn't seen or heard music like this.




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Like Judas

Track 2 from the 1993 Confession of Faith release
The Sacrament




Like Judas

By your purity rise us all and from your sickening love I fall
I pray for love but from love I fall
Weep my child in this sickened delight
And pray salvation to my endless night
For over life I chose this power
For the taste of love had turned sour
You have turned away from me your head
And left me drowning in the tears I shed
Like a dying child to you I clung
Wanting someone I had hung
I’m so diseased I’m so diseased
Will you still love me
With a kiss like Judas I betray
My salvation consumed in decay
I know I was so sickening
I know love I will yearn
As I fell from grace
You did turn
You have watched me slowly as I bled
My sickening love from your withered bed
And all I love does seem to die
So here alone I do cry
Please dear god my eyelids close
I gave my love a blackened rose
She took this flower and turned so old
Love to me is so cold
So weep my child is this sickened delight
And pray salvation to my endless night
For over life I chose this power
For the taste of love had turned sour



'Like Judas' This is very Confession of Faith, dark lighting, the intense, aural, industrial cascade. This song is from The Sacrament ep. The crowd seems very intense due to the fact that this was performed in the High School lunchroom for the 1993 Jefferson High School Battle of the Bands and most of the students probably hadn't seen or heard music like this.





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Cain

Track 3 from the 1993 Confession of Faith release
The Sacrament




Cain

How I lust
As your life slips away
And all that is left
Is the stench of decay
Staring down into the pit of damnation
Knowing I’ll never find my salvation
But through he last drowning breath
This hunger I fill for I am your death
God save my soul
My love lasts forever
Shrouded in sackcloth
She now stands
For I am the blessed
And I am the damned
Thriving off her tears of joy
I come not in love
But come to destroy
The woman who welcomed my as her guest
That now lies twisted bleeding and undressed
God save my soul
My love lasts forever
Because of Cain I am grotesque
For I am the damned and I am the blessed
The cerements of immortality embrace
All who are of this kindred race
Given the kiss that longs the day
That buries me deep in the stench of decay
God save me









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Hallowed

Track 4 from the 1993 Confession of Faith release
The Sacrament



Hallowed

Falling from the face of god
Pulling my heart into despair
Isolation leaves me cold
So empty are the hands of prayer
The hands of prayer they bleed my skin
And pull me underneath again
Into your lips that softly say
Fuck me once again I stray
So delicate inside your skin
The hands of prayed they call again
To your ears that hear no pain
Praying are the hands in vain
Shattered are the memories
That slowly sink into despair
Placing faith in empty words
Forsaken are the hands of prayer



'Hallowed' What is amusing here is the school's mascot and decorations as well as the very standard guitar solo that is heard before COF performs. This is very Confession of Faith, dark lighting, the intense, aural, industrial cascade. This song is from The Sacrament ep. The crowd seems very intense due to the fact that this was performed in the High School lunchroom for the 1993 Jefferson High School Battle of the Bands and most of the students probably hadn't seen or heard music like this.



This is Confession of Faith performing to victory at the 1993 Minnesota Highschool Battle of the Bands at the Mirage. COF took sole first place. 2 bands tied for second place and 2 bands tied for third but COF one by themselves. What is amusing is that after COF performed, they immediately left the competition only finding out that they had won while they were returning their gear at home. The prize was free studio recording time. The songs we played were 'Hallowed' and 'Dominatrix'.





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Lord of the Flies

Track 5 from the 1993 Confession of Faith release
The Sacrament



Lord of the Flies

Is it I that you look for
As the darkness consumes
For it is I that withers all that’s in bloom
I am the Lord, Lord of the flies
I am the angel of death
Do you not see
As you lower your dress
And stand longingly
To embrace this disease that hungers in me
I am the Lord of the flies
Standing in this unhallowed place
You lift your lips to kiss my face
Can you not see it’s your death you embrace
My eyes are clouded by the tears I shed
I beg of thee to turn your head
Away from death’s eternal wed
Can you not see I’m the angel of death
For with my lips I consume your breath
And then I ask
Do you feel me inside



"Lord of the Flies" This is part 4 of the winter 1995 Confession of Faith performance at Ground Zero in Minneapolis, Minnesota. This performance was done during the time COF was negotiating their way onto the Triple X Records compilation "Dim View of the Future". Dark and ominous are crutial elements in a COF performance. This song is from the ep "The Sacrament".



'Lord of the Flies' This is very Confession of Faith, dark lighting, the intense, aural, industrial cascade. This song is from The Sacrament ep. The crowd seems very intense due to the fact that this was performed in the High School lunchroom for the 1993 Jefferson High School Battle of the Bands and most of the students probably hadn't seen or heard music like this.






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Dominatrix

Track 6 from the 1993 Confession of Faith release
The Sacrament




Dominatrix

As the dead leaves fall
On the pale wet ground
The screaming of the voices
Echoes all around
And the taste of pain
Holds on my tongue
And all who do not kneel
Are brought here and hung
In the red room
With the white walls
Standing here naked
The virgins bring bread
To murder the few that tried
That tainted the red
In the red room
With the white walls
Rape me in this red lit room
My vision of love a diseased womb
Rape me and it feels so good
It feels so good and I know it should
Twist with me in this tainted reign
Among the tears and among the pain
I realize that nothings new
And I’m chained to the wall
Bleeding for you



'Dominatrix' This is very Confession of Faith, dark lighting, the intense aural cascade. This song is from The Sacrament ep. The crowd seems very intense due to the fact that this was performed in the Highschool lunchroom and most of the students probably hadn't seen or heard music like this.



This is Confession of Faith performing to victory at the 1993 Minnesota Highschool Battle of the Bands at the Mirage. COF took sole first place. 2 bands tied for second place and 2 bands tied for third but COF one by themselves. What is amusing is that after COF performed, they immediately left the competition only finding out that they had won while they were returning their gear at home. The prize was free studio recording time. The songs we played were 'Hallowed' and 'Dominatrix'.



This is is an amusing juxtapose of Confession of Faith showing school spirit to help collect food. What makes this funny is how out of place the music is to the environment, from the thanking of the band before us (All the President's Men - the first band I formed) by saying all of their names wrong, to the introduction of the captains of school spirit. Another amusing element are the areas of the performance that are recorded over by news clips. This is a classic COF live performance. Also included are jeers and insults hurled at us the musicians like most of our performances. 'Dominatrix' is the song we played. This is a rather industrial/metal tune of ours.




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Do You Love Pain

Track 1 from the 1995 Confession of Faith release
Do You Love Pain




Do You Love Pain

Covered in sackcloth dripping with red
The promise of love as she enters my bed
Do you like pain she says with a kiss
I cover my eyes enshrouded in bliss
Do you love pain

Do you love me
She says on her knees
How can I love
What I can never believe
Take then my hand and drown in my eyes
Believe this is love
Salvation through lies
Do you love pain
Do you love me

For one more night I feel love’s skin
As I open my arms
And embrace her again
I feel my heart raped again by her tongue
As I watch love wither
As slowly she hung
Do you love pain
Do you love me
Now



"Do You Love Pain" This is part 5 of the winter 1995 Confession of Faith performance at Ground Zero in Minneapolis, Minnesota. This performance was done during the time COF was negotiating their way onto the Triple X Records compilation "Dim View of the Future". Dark and ominous are crutial elements in a COF performance. This song is from the ep "Do You Love Pain".






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You Will be Mine

Track 2 from the 1995 Confession of Faith release
Do You Love Pain




You Will be Mine

You will be mine
And I’m on top again
And I know you’ll undress me
As the day drags on she says
Will you untie me
You step in time
I follow you
Your little legs
I say it won’t hurt this time
But your tears invite me
Please let me be inside
Please let me be inside


Please


Dance again

When I taste of your skin
Slowly my sorrows wane
And I see love as that which is not in vane
But then with each time I pray it my last
To god I entreat death for I am unchaste
Oh I’m so tired
Of love that tastes so stale
Nothing will be given to me
But you I will always have

You won’t turn me away I know
Will you crawl to me
You will love me I say
Will you let me inside of you
Please let me be inside

Please

Dance again
Love was meant for a girl like you
When I taste of your skin
Slowly my sorrows wane
And I see love as that which is not in vane
But then with each time I pray it my last
To god I entreat death for I am unchaste

Dance again

Love was meant for a girl like you



"You Will Be Mine" This is part 2 of the winter 1995 Confession of Faith performance at Ground Zero in Minneapolis, Minnesota. This performance was done during the time COF was negotiating their way onto the Triple X Records compilation "Dim View of the Future". Dark and ominous are crutial elements in a COF performance. This song is from the ep "Do You Love Pain".








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Day of a Thousand Years

Track 3 from the 1995 Confession of Faith release
Do You Love Pain




Day of a Thousand Years

Thicker grows the stifling air
I solation bends my knee s in prayer
Love heals not my soul so cold
In empty nest my skin was sold

In contrition my empty soul
And from me in a sense she stole
So now alone severed from god
Sent forth I am to the land of nod

I am forsaken

Without hope

Love deceives me not in my fears
I feel this day the weight of a thousand years
So cold I grow with the darkening sky
Absolve dear lord penitent am I

I am forsaken

Without hope

Salvation is lost to my arrogant tears
I wish my prayers fell upon god’s ears
Weary I grow at a quickening pace
I fear I have fallen from god’s grace

God I am forsaken

Without hope

I do love god



"Day of a Thousand Years" This is part 6 of the winter 1995 Confession of Faith performance at Ground Zero in Minneapolis, Minnesota. This performance was done during the time COF was negotiating their way onto the Triple X Records compilation "Dim View of the Future". Dark and ominous are crutial elements in a COF performance. This song is from the ep "Do You Love Pain".











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lower

Track 1 from the 1996 Confession of Faith release
i am god's chosen



Lower
Recede back and the ground gives way
I stumble left in dismay
For I am righteous and my deeds are of good
But only a sinner has breathed where i’ve stood
So feast thee with thine eyes
And view my sins with due accord
And see the path of a wretched man
Whose raised himself above the lord
When we all find ourselves kneeling before
Well surely love will reign even then
Let’s stack us our accomplishments beside god
Amounting nothing
For we’re all damned
So I’ll build me an idol
And on it’s shoulders I’ll place my head
Caress it I will and lay my soul at it’s feet dead





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Friday, November 07, 2008

i am god's chosen

Track 2 from the 1996 Confession of Faith release
i am god's chosen



I am god’s chosen
Why do I feel so cold and pray death on bended knee
My hands to god I longingly hold and pray
For the love of christ
I built the tower of babel to reach god
And no longer thirst
So how is this when my lips touch her skin
I reach god first
Do you see me stumble
And fall further away from god
I raise my hands to heaven and pray
For the love of christ
This is god’s way
Eloi, eloi, lama sabachthani
For the love of christ
I somehow find myself on my knees before the lord
And all he sees is sin and I know I am abhorred
He shows to me my life and hell that waits me then
I plead forgiveness for I am god’s chosen



"i am god's chosen" This is part 1 of the winter 1995 Confession of Faith performance at Ground Zero in Minneapolis, Minnesota. This performance was done during the time COF was negotiating their way onto the Triple X Records compilation "Dim View of the Future". Dark and ominous are crutial elements in a COF performance. This song is from the ep "i am god's chosen".





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wither

Track 3 from the 1996 Confession of Faith release
i am god's chosen



Wither
I slowly turn laying virtue asunder
Entreating love come hither (to me)
Standing before her clad in disease
I see all things wither in her
My fleeting eyes see her with deathly pallor
My worthlessness brings me here to lie
I fill my cup over with deceit
I see all things die
In her eyes I see hordes writhing without aim
In her eyes I see tears that are only for my shame
Show to me love for it’s nowhere to be found
There buried shallowly beneath the ground (in her)
In her eyes I see hordes writhing without aim
In her eyes I see tears that are only for my shame
Here I stand complacency upon my lips while harboring
Fear and loathing, self-deception
Vanity whose lips are so sweet
Then I feed these pale children
Cowering before me like dogs
I take their hands and lead them down
To view the setting of the sun
Where myself and the world
We decline as one






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cinders

Track 4 from the 1996 Confession of Faith release
i am god's chosen



Cinders
The land lays veiled in our own stench
As we bid on that which we won’t clench
Into our hearts that we then might
See ourselves in only light
Torn and laid below
That which love did sow
Into the fields of latent joy
Inside our hearts that we destroy
With faith in ourselves so feebly we’ll stand
As withered children smitten to dirt
Will sin still sate my tongue
For I am lost
So proud I am of all that I have done
To sit and veil the dying son
For to myself I’ll draw and keep
And fall into life’s steep
end





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sullen

Track 5 from the 1996 Confession of Faith release
i am god's chosen



Sullen
Will someone take my hand this night
And lead me through this endless plight
For love whose harlot eyes I see
In waves that spiral down on me
Behold, enfold the king of the land
Where love lies dead
All things laid in pristine rows
But nothing in this garden grows
And as like filth that I taste
Upon my life laying in waste
Uplift my heart and bathe anew
For drown in offalness I do
But it is I who brings the rain
And with my knees I detain
Anything that for love there stands
I sit on high and make demands
Then I see it drain
And circle down on me like rain
Raise me up in all my beauty in all my luster
Bathe me in gold
Then I’ll come and sit upon my throne
Where I shall judge over my empire, where is it now,
For as I am enshrouded by cries
I’ve come to find the tears they are all mine, for I am lost,
Kneeling from the weight of my life
With my skin in the dirt and my soul in the fire





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Eastgo

Track 1 from the spring 1999 Confession of Faith release
Children of a Dying Sun



dissension clamours within my heart
stilling Love's attempt to impart
Grace, Peace, Love to my life and yet
it's feigned remorse stinging my eyes wet

if Hope did dwell within my heart
i have no grasp of it
for i do glorify myself
well that's just full of shit

as all that matters is Love

somehow i've stumbled into dominion over my will
over all that which i am, are you so different
are we not human, with the same child's heart
all longing Love until death
when we hold no more the reins
what the fuck are we then

then i hear said, dance for me Salome
and we shall see who is in chains and who is free
i hope that it's you pray that it is, in God

can you see to what extent our frailty does exist
and how in homage my knees are bent
but not towards Love for that i kissed for my gain

betraying any Hope beyond this my flesh of clay
as to what i see as Truth i only make delay
slash and burn elected turn away from what is everything
i see i have no footing left for me to stand on





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Arrow

Track 2 from the spring 1999 Confession of Faith release
Children of a Dying Sun



how i did fall
by mistaking sin for worth
sight cast downwards
sees feet heavily laden
with guilt on earth

i stumble onwards aimlessly
clutching on Truth or is it falsity
but where am i when all is gone
longing eternal or beneath the man nailed on

then i think why
has there always been
such a wide berth
betwixt me and God

by my own design
by my own construction
yeah self





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Sallow Husk

Track 3 from the spring 1999 Confession of Faith release
Children of a Dying Sun




i've dealt my life these burdens
that cling with grasp renewed
that stammer 'round my virtue
like a hunted dog pursued

ravaged and left for dead
see it lay there still

so underneath a crooked tree
a clearing there ahead
it looks so shelter abandoned
with the watchman king nailed dead

dark

earth

and

dirt

my grievances are self made
for my pursuers i have wrought
myself would adhere to Love
if myself to Love i brought

and pinned beneath that sallow husk
attached to would like steel
my whole self as a human
my whole soul with poignant zeal

then i am cleansed
then i am whole
then i am in Love
then i am Love




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Erased

Track 4 from the spring 1999 Confession of Faith release
Children of a Dying Sun



consider then there is no purpose
as oblivion hammers out its name
on this world as on all things
if static our lives we end with no claim

to the One who is and preceded the One who was and forever

God of what use is breath
when the mantle of Truth we've torn and now are bare
then further this life to what end
so base is my mind so meager before Love

cunningly my senses endure
a harsh reproach from my feeble blind heart
while earth's laurel crown i secure
upon my head, i see i have no part

of Love so freely given
of Truth which lasts so far beyond my days

where is the glory where is the honor
in that which fades in that which dies

if there is a God if there is Truth
are we not showered in that reign
whether we choose to accept or to deny
i fear all our knees shall weaken before Love

reap Grace like a servant who needeth no scythe
for the germ is already bread the meal prepared
embrace or decline life

so where is the glory where is the honor

nowhere it is all gone it is all dead
nothing we build ever shall last
so why with sight the firmament we seek God
when there inside us waiting is Love







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Halfmast

Track 5 from the spring 1999 Confession of Faith release
Children of a Dying Sun



all things fade away and leave me longing
so much more than i have to give
Love unfurled half mast as in twain the wood snaps
down crumbles Love
so i stamp on her
lichen to the ground
now i feel so proud

what seems to handle hard
i tire then i discard
and i know my heart deceives
when faced with sin to that it reeves
i still cannot find as self defies my mind
again and i perceive
the endless struggling hand of breath
holds on, i condemn it, Love
though i could receive




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Lot

Track 6 from the spring 1999 Confession of Faith release
Children of a Dying Sun



what tastes so foul i see upon me
gaping a hole the size of my soul
that is no longer in tune
it sets like the moon
down under the world
down under the Hope
of anything more than this life

stand firm Love when the horror comes
when desolate seems my whole life
it is then that i stab at thee

jaded as i am found
silent worries abound
see the withered look upon my face
another place holds more horror
than my eye when i deny

or another way is there for us
then i hope that it does surface

shelter is offered and not retained
all that is Love, disdained
shackled down in ways that dry this life well in me
decide if it anchors salt
weighed it in towards worth and i fell short
as my own strength fails

the gavel is thrown
to whom all who disown
the hard extreme attempt
at lasciviousness and turgid life
cut jagged like a knife
in the heart as it is turned
blackened all against Love
or when lost then took a realm
and all that i can do again
is accept a Hope
more than i ever can be
or if i did choose that way
i certainly could be as One





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Motion Still

Track 7 from the spring 1999 Confession of Faith release
Children of a Dying Sun




what device does time instill
that strengthens my deadened will
or is it just that it is time
and i the chooser of the rhyme

that chooses coarse till the end
of Truth that seems a feeble trend
that harkens to mine ear so shrill
a tone that hastens motion still

what comes to be i see just what eternity means for me

and offers such a cup at length
that for the chooser, is whole in strength
encompassed then in a veil of Grace
where only Peace does touch that face

Hope in twain i am slain
far behind what i could gain or even ascertain

it's shame i fear that begs me to stand
and present my life with sleight of hand
to you and hope my ideals you see
but that's just the fool's heart in me

crawling, pining, breaking beneath the weight of Grace
for it's hard to accept the acceptance is the key

far it goes
entire pace slows
Truth where art thou
the road towards it flows
foot after foot after foot after foot after foot




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See it as it Ends

Track 8 from the spring 1999 Confession of Faith release
Children of a Dying Sun




all hail Love as we tear her down
to where every longing is what
we laid out in front
and ravished her there
thinking not whilst our lives were cut

severed as a new babe that is shorn from its cord defenseless it weeps as air stings lungs
yet it is still adored
by the same Love that only Love can afford

hang it like a weight
'round your drowning neck
and sink forever under
the waters of oblivion

oft i do tend to picture life
as that which binds me tight in fetters
curtailing Love with marked strife
alas are we not debtors
choosing to crawl with slavish stride
we make ourselves as soul shaped letters
laying as words spelt to deride
reading away from me Lord
in the harrowing tide
of sought found umbra i stored
the gravest heart of my sin
the shit i once had abhorred
in this redundant din
i'm as dirt as cleft dross
requiring smelting again
freedom's glory-holed cross

was it Hope that we nailed
there that day
that still hangs

forever on a long time
down the road see it as it ends
at some point in our time
but further than that




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Upshit

Track 9 from the spring 1999 Confession of Faith release
Children of a Dying Sun



if it taints against the reign
of what use is that to me
if the thread tears beneath the weight
is there more silk to wind it together
but look at all the length of twine
in heaps at our feet
if the thread is our life
must we not look to the loom
or just strive for wealth
for our services rendered

unto ourselves into the dark
inside the midst of a worsening storm

where no seams will hold
where all fabric is in twain
beneath the edge of the loom master's robe

woe

and what are we doing now
and what are we
when we only try to gain
we are undone





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What Seeks the Land

Track 10 from the spring 1999 Confession of Faith release
Children of a Dying Sun



i think i'll hazard a guess that we're as feeble
as a cur, the land seeks to destroy
where is the sinner who dares to call
any transgression small
be appalled my faint heart at the sight
when my sin eclipses the light
do we sincerely think we will gain
worth that shall always sustain
by allotting merit of import
to our lives with our hand
reeking in pride saying i am so grand
where is worth when we face Love with pride
absent, in shame we deride
and sever all things tying us to Grace
with failure we do replace
Hope that accosts us every moment
that will come or that we have spent
failing to hear the knocking or care
that it's Love that stands there
longing for us to open the door
and speak enter





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Caliban

Track 1 from the fall 1999 Confession of Faith release
Still Born



then i’d have to say a prisoner’s way
is hopeless indeed for have we not choice and need
at least it seems so since first dawn i new day
which i’ve hid and locked away in a pandora’s heart
a slight flickered gleam which is all that fashions the seam
between this life and the next without choice life is a dream
In a dream N/A dream
can you perceive orchard empty blossomed flower
cut from tree my soul is me
so often that i with listless did lie and say
what a good boy am i but for one man the sky
with immense reply did say what a good boy am i
as a boy as a man i think everyone can invite temptation
is it anything is it anyone am i ever finished am i done
the burning heart has a son from whence it seems all run
I believe choice have we The will to make the motion sea
Wane or fill these lives that be Or semi-tear the symmetry
The caliban the i’ll set free The humble can the only
Way that i fear i never see Is crooked man with crooked knee
I believe choice heavy The burdened back the turn us we
From wax to wane the candle’s me To semi-shine the majesty
The caliban the i’ll set free The meager man the only
Way that i fear i shall be As crooked can with crooked knee
The love i ban the set me free My heart to dirt the only
Way that i fear is for me is choice to choice with love as key
that i know is me That i have in me



This is a short film that uses the Confession of Faith song 'Caliban' from the fall 1999 COF album 'StillBorn' made by Mitch Lusas, Jason Richards and Norm Mintle in 2007. The film is a great look at pressure and control and who holds the button of power.





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East Er

Track 2 from the fall 1999 Confession of Faith release
Still Born




bad taste on my mouth the site tittered away
all sides sit ailing to me and how have i grown
this day as tossed ship in lost sea still afloat
just drifting south in earshot beholden to this
idea of beauty in any hue it places on me
a certain demise i care not the moment
nor the skies in our heart lesion lay
file D for dismay when we’re brought
unto the total view i hammer not to pacify
i just count more than only two dead
on the ground next to Horror Astound
the party shall play oh we’re all swept away
cut apart with sawtooth decided in youth
to covet or treasure the moment it asunder
our land inside the hard banking on the moment
and the poor our heart dangling whore
a meltdown in core with slight sound the
mystify is found last place holding i miss
the purposed reply distort freedoms we halve
and cleave the head from the calve
to sift the rot for repent days are nights
and time slips by me soothe on another level
you speakest of truth but soil my ear
the sodom i see the failures are we have us
any fear receding dimensions the mind-numbing
expanse of drivel turned to downpour i can scour
the shore for bridge with less wormbore
and find few if any in my view the cavalcade
the have i made more 2 sense than a harlot outlaid
are all afraid the burning distemper
as the passion played are we slurred down
me native tempull away our heart
pluck now malaise as a part we crawl drifting far
a bulwarked din see the arms oh well oh anyhow i







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sendown

Track 3 from the fall 1999 Confession of Faith release
Still Born




if crevice were made and somehow we strayed
and i wound myself up on the edge of the further side
in a twine of delayed i fashioned the frayed
and affixed to my heart a peace that i thought i had tried
then does it all subside
to a lull where we no longer breathe
i’m talking more permanence than that
of a soul to face fear i’ll crawl to be near
and search to find thee are we not all free
when we face the dawn yet it’s time that’s still further drawn
on on on and on
and dawn
with partitioned veil the hardest of trail
is the one from whence i stagger
and all things first flowed
but i fastened the nail to a body so frail
that i don’t know if the fiddle i bowed
would play me a song to settle my soul in the calamity
don’t twist apart their there in waylay
chance debauchered so frantic to say
i hope the dither never sates me it may




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Assembly Divide

Track 4 from the fall 1999 Confession of Faith release
Still Born



Shall it shine under the err
Rending hearts and tending no care
Unto my eyes sin it is laden
And lifeless all through the land
So it seems under the air
Shall we mend without care
Undo the end before our knees do bend
A little dream not much steam
I fail to see banality bade me to amend
Heart tend our fear
It shall ever be near
Me and my heart barren
From a start-ing
A home between
Love’s assemblage and the assembly
Of love’s parts
And set aside within the our
It will divide and it seems
If baby can’t do the art
Shall go zombie
And dissolve all at landfall
As faith may seem so sheared
And caught to sway
A needle lost in hay
A baffled brook
Which sense mistook and led down
To a peaceless somber bay
Which way do you turn towards muster or yearn
I cannot see the font of spring the dead season’s chimes ring
Appalling life abysmal day
The foolery the what to say
But I can sing of freedom’s wing of hope in this thing
Was I kissing freedom’s wing open this thing
We call it life we nurse the dead we dismiss reason instead
Behold how none of us ever can decide
What makes human
Our sires laid caprice with need
And furnished egg with seed
Cradle schism caught in long haul







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Far

Track 5 from the fall 1999 Confession of Faith release
Still Born



I saw me far to the ocean
With kneading hands the water it came
And changed the dirt that I had brought
Into clay I knew had my name
I saw me then devoid of
Grief that lies a wound so bare
From face to face we hasten stride
I’m too fucking tired to sit and stare
At this world at these hands
At failing pride’s sweet demands
While catering to ourselves
The water is siphoned away
Where is any hope into this dead world
Defiling my flag unfurled
I came myself upon the field
And backpedal reeled
Oh oh we caved and kneeled
Duty found withering day misnomered as fray
And chasing the pieces life brushed away
Leading to where any moment upon
The terraformed center core
I cannot feel the weight of temple wall
Regodless I crawl day unto day unto day
The merciless familiar sway
So much to think much more to feel
Seldom is seen seldom is real
On and on it leads nowhere
A pseudo cause with shitty flair
I am nothing of what I believe
I pass the time the air I thieve
I ask for reprieve
Change my sentence from wit to plain shit
And cast me to the wind
I never will rescind
My path is laid bare
Either truth or nothing’s there
Hope beckons with deadpan stare







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Crowd

Track 6 from the fall 1999 Confession of Faith release
Still Born



I’m stationed across from a piecemealed land
And my faith seems so hidden faceless I stand
A deceiver with stringence as sand
Though my god is the whole of everything
That we see or can’t be seen
And it all falls through my heart’s drowning hand
Into deep pools of sensation
Extinguishing the light for my way
Towards rebirth and progress
But in dismay I fumbling say
Driveled words when I pray
In blank verse with blank heart
I can not find the point to start
So come follow me
And I’ll drape us in offal and blight
And I’ll sing for the moment
Sing how love is trite
But it’s back the other way
And now our shades are as night
In my heart in my mind
The eye seems blind
And suspect all endeavors
Of what my life’s confusion may find





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Barrow

Track 7 from the fall 1999 Confession of Faith release
Still Born




Barrow
I barrowed the downs
Sift a mightier way
The comatosing start
Another blistering day
Meager stairs step away
The brandishing of new
I call to me more care
The caring was bonebare
And worthier days
I long to hold your gaze
To see what fruited trees
Can be picked off of my knees
I care not for dissent I fear not the fruit
Just shatter me a name
Like god is savior
I tantalize the seedier skies
My eyes make contact to
The motion apathy describes
And I can stagger more than you
When I choose like I do
I beckoned a cause
Pleading please no pause
See my heart is here
With hope I shall never fear
Creed dented cross bent
Burning so morose
Does hatred cleanse
Your bleeding wounds so close
To your beating heart
Does indifference impart
A fleeting sense of recompense
Just show me my exit and I will leave you here





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Stale Sin Sale

Track 8 from the fall 1999 Confession of Faith release
Still Born




It was a shimmering night
The veiled city as a momentary lapse
And motion sifting away the psyche ovasive
As love in low moment twas a nation like that
In which I fell into when nowhere I had
Chosen it like life the rest and gaze unto the moment
That we see truth and obey underlit and I’m under that day
I fear that it is all gone away
In the maze of a fickle haze
Given receiveth I smitten devise
Swift and decisive hell I can not face
Motion memory or grace
Death at the end then I need more
In my mind days writhe and I find
Anything that gives me strength
But all is feeble but grace
Come soft sweet melody
Bring candor apparently
Fortuitousness offense lingers long
It ain’t hard to sound sound deformed
In the life’s blood a jumbled eden
And all purpose seems lost and nondescript
A shattered easter a careless blunder-ring
I found and placed upon thee calling MIA
The funniest shit
In all your name my lone triage
Sites only fade a man self-made
Is it I is it in
Is in N is it stale
Is it R easy sin
Is it I easy sale
As I came I nowhere found
A site that simply looked good
Or anything that I need more love
It all as sunder is cast
Stand I see my hand
Dead against my life as sand
Glass is broke often enough
But love does stand






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What Happens Then

Track 9 from the fall 1999 Confession of Faith release
Still Born



What Happens Then

I brought the detriment
Of carelessly spent
Consuming morsels
Cast off me as I went
Towards freedom’s rings
A smatter of things
Seem to cadence glorify
I caught distant prisoner’s scent
How dost thou feel
When tin and steel
We pass off as gold
And we try to hold
The passion slips
And solder fails
As truth rips
The fuck out of everything
And what have us now to bring
More shit and failure





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Glamour Capital

Track 10 from the fall 1999 Confession of Faith release
Still Born




Glamour Capital

Is purpose careless and free with no more muster in me
I reach Berlin wall hear fear shrewdly call
Rally comrades flock wound down truth like clock
I never wanted in me these pattered orthodoxy
Seeds sought patiently down and on one knee
Hear peace banter a cry see assassin slit on sly
Crowning achievement in bloomed discord
Calling the maker like leper ignored were our hearts poured
March ye towards victory then tell the how why
In a madrigal all that does stand strong it shall remain star
For how long before it dwindles is it billions of years that even ends
Seek you the future then seekest the past does anything last
We swagger to the new start of all the tumbling down
I chartered to the set sun the sight was all but done
Not sure win you such hands as stalwart to the machine
Searches only destroy as someone carelessly seen
Soul judging from on high too forward for the reply
Butchered in the extreme as sorrow in Dis does teem
Shining do all they so watch is all they say
Recutting the pieces hoping for new day





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Saturday, August 30, 2008

Left Too Dry

Track 1 from the September 2008 euphoreador release
ChineSeXXX American Idolatry



Left too Dry

I can’t say that I lack all of any sort of redeeming qualities
I can’t say that I’ve done nothing of mention
Which I really haven’t done
But there is one thing common unto
Humanity beings you and me

There’s nowhere left to run to anymore
There’s nowhere left to run

The seeking of the care
Can’t it be the wherewithal
Of dawning light
Unilateral friendship
And the need to pull it in two

There’s nowhere left to run to anymore
There’s nowhere left to run

See it in the lane
Flag it down like pain
Then stair the apathetic air
Then when we knew who we rent
We buy more like we threw away as spent

So if we think
That our life's on the brink
It just may be
Indemnity

Collapse the race
And roar the crowd
The wonderlust is for the proud
Sound of interminable malaise
I hope it pays one of these days
We who all prowl inane
Without in toto

Cause it takes more effort to be a pest
To be a naysay
That we can do more
And that we won’t do shit
Never are we here
And everything in it
Yeah, well
There just isn’t

There ain’t nowhere left to run to anymore
There’s no where left to run

You think it’s all in fun
You think it’s all done
But when you need a place to go
And there ain’t anything you know of




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Give In

Track 2 from the September 2008 euphoreador release
ChineSeXXX American Idolatry



Give In

I didn't think that I knew of all the odds seeing that the way shun to the flaweds
I'm on the prowl baby can't you be, with me leacherous for fell en knee
We gonna go down slow into the wanes into the pains
((prolitariot))
(I'm pro let tear it off apart places we won't be caught
and bring your blanket stare I cant only you got me moving there)
We're gonna bring what we all know to be the case and the carry you there
(care)
So come here
And give in

The pussy pass and they glide down to forgot
you know the way we always think and thought
You got an eye and a shape and a I move to your gait
I'm gonna unlock and let us go inside the Garden of Earthly Delights tonight
we know everything is scared utter shitless and see of the fitness
the fire and the all we will never die
(the flowers without your adding more in the tribulations inner I adore
adorate bed my mate see all on the thin ice skate ice on no body skin we're never in
wolves' stare will cry and we won't even know that we will die)

So come here
And give in
So come here
We're bedding deeper in sin
So come here
And give in
Come on
We're bedding further than you've ever been

Why do you want to go home with such a duchebag
Everything that he says lies triple slag
I'm gonna fashion to gather all his lies
together and make a huge balloon
That says 'I'm an asshole'
You do not read it
I see it certain 30,000 miles away
But you think all he cares about is the sway
with his swagger ways and candor
in the can't to can not see the light in all the thought
I'm gonna give you real things
To make you think and I hope
In all the ring around us brings





'Give In' This is track 2 from ChineSeXXX American Idolatry, the september 2008 euphoreador release. The song is about how we need to be fearless and open ourselves up for the possibility of love and intimacy.



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slum lord

Track 3 from the September 2008 euphoreador release
ChineSeXXX American Idolatry




Slum lord

Been baffled by beauty
Taking languid drawts* all day
Sifting through the words of my government
My slumlord sol invictus I have to pay

Been talking too regal
Tempting all the tail
Wandering parts
Of the onerous arts
Nefarious duplicity

Ought we go down
Into the New Orleans
Penchant the blessed
Of worn-out virgin
Leaped into the ocean
On a whim
And I don’t think she can swim
In the fever of our lives
Do we not exercise
Then come again

Conjecture fits, the face don’t
Sublimely doubt in lycopene
Tearing down the road towards a fucking low
Could lay million dollar on another fun over here
Keep a goddamn plan
Fierce to the false occasion
Feast to the fuck
Blister in the mind declare
I simply don’t care

Hell and we will go there
Inner phage
Things won’t be free for fools are we
We all dainty
Wasted lifetimes
We all decree
Portion putrid fail

Thems are the way
Pull him off
We can tell the curtain call
Bring it down into the womb now
Hold your faith
Feel the light
See your vision
Fear resolve flight
Offer, take, to the world
We care less everyday now
We’re just little ants
What supplants what I see
What is you then we

Fluttering take-down
Do we can’t die anymore
We can’t die again
Only once
So better make it goddamn faster
Into the world we only go


*drawts – a combination of the english word, draught
and the french word, droite





"slum lord' This is track 3 from the September 2008 euphoreador release entitled ChineSeXXX American Idolatry. The song is about standing firm in the resolution of who we are and not pretending what we aren't. Also not being afraid to find out who we are. The video is a new rehashing of video that was used in some Confession of Faith performances. This video also contains the decapitation of a chicken.





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